Weakness = Strength

Do you ever feel like there's so much going on in your world that you are unable to separate your thoughts and feelings into any semblance of order? I usually like to analyze significant moments and hopefully glean some new truths from them...you know, make some logical, spiritual sense out of things as they happen. For a couple of months now, I've been living in a kind of fog. Circumstances are very uncomfortable, worrisome, the future unknown. I don't like this place. I want to know the why's, the when's, and that all my what if's are really "no problem." I have shed more tears, prayed more desperately and felt more helpless than ever before. I realize that I have no control over most of what happens in life....and definitely no control over what is happening now.

Now that I think about it, this place that I'm in is probably the place God wants me. It's not comfortable and I don't like it. You see, I am weaker, more dependent on God and less self-reliant, more prayerful, more desperate for God than I've ever been. Then I think of Paul's words, "I glory in my weaknesses, because when I am weak, then I am strong." So from God's perspective, I'm stronger than I've ever been. Hmm.....